So, maybe I am just slightly pathetic and feel overwhelmed by all my tasks. But, realistically I always feel like there is so much more ahead of me than what I have accomplished, and lately this has just made me want to curl up in a ball and quit. Yes, quit. EVERYTHING. So as illogical as this may be, it is my mind and it is my mind's prerogative (I have little control over the downward spiral of these worries). So in attempt to combat the mind, I am just going to briefly cover ALL that I accomplished today, because it was a good day.
7:15 shower, makeup and hair (woah, a lot more than usual)
8:00 Bus to central campus
8:30-10 Marketing Class. I presented a project I have logged over 45 hours on in group meetings, which is worth 30% of my grade. Yep, big deal. And, I ROCKED IT!
10:00-11 Meeting with LHC group to review upcoming presentation
11:00 Lunch at East Quad
11:30-1 LHC (class)- Presented the group project (probably had about 8 meetings to prepare up to this date)
1:15-2Marketing Research Experiment, basically I have to do this to pass my mkt class
2-2:30 Visited American Express Office Hours, I would really like to work for them.
2:30-5 Napped at the Institute. 4 hours of sleep didn't do it the night before
5-6:30 Attended American Express Corporate Presentation
6:30-7:45 Met with Phil to discuss Activities Committee
8:00 Went to the Chamber Orchestra Show with John
10:00 Went to Kroger, then watched Over the Hedge with John and roomates
12:15Arrived back at dorm for the first time since the morning
12:15-Current: Surfed, sent ward emails and wrote in my blog.
I think it is time for bed. Thanks for reading, not every day is like this. I had to write though, because I spent the entire orchestra show plaguing my mind with all I had to do and wouldn't be able to do. BUT LOOK! I have already done so much!
Kristin "working on my mental health issues" Bates
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Thursday, November 6, 2008
John is such a wonderful and selfless man. When I am so down, he lifts me up. I know that he truly believes I can do anything, and that unending faith in me is SO empowering. I am so grateful for his presence in my life, for his love and ultimately for the relationship we cherish.
Today was a rough day. I was tearing myself down because again I felt incredibly overwhelmed and not up to any of the tasks ahead of me. John also didn't feel well, and his work wasn't going well in the lab. I also have had work and group projects every night, so tonight, as most days we won't get to see each other.
But lo and behold, upon arriving at work there was a letter in my inbox. A love letter. I instantly forgot my uncertainties as my heart swelled at the incredible support John gives me each day, especially when I am in need.
It is my only hope that I can love him, and support him in a way that I can always be his and just be deserving of such goodness.
So today, in perhaps a slightly intimate, slightly mushy blog post, I express my love for him.
Off to take on the world, for he loves me!